

A must-read, especially for those of us who have been accused of being in gay porn films." -Lodro Rinzler, author of The Buddha Walks into a Bar. It feels odd to call it a memoir, given how it is chock full of genuine Buddhist insight. "This is the funniest, most genuine spiritual memoir I have ever read. "The best account I have ever read of the education of a Zen monk in America." -Leonard Cohen Haubner’s unorthodox take on the spiritual search, marked by moments of grace, and his strength as an essayist will win over a specific audience willing to accept his dare." - Publishers Weekly "The author’s search to ‘grow into a true human being’ is described with startling metaphors, acute insights, and humor. Not only because it’s highly entertaining, but because of its remarkable insight into the human condition. Whether he’s dealing with the pranks of a juvenile delinquent assistant in the monastery kitchen or defending himself against claims that he appeared in a porno movie under the name “Daniel Reed” (he didn’t, really) or being surprised in the midst of it all by the compassion he experiences in the presence of his teacher, Haubner’s voice is one you'll be compelled to listen to.

How he went from life in the fast lane to life on the stationary meditation cushion is the subject of this laugh-out-loud funny account of his experiences. Raised in a conservative Catholic family, Shozan went on to study philosophy (becoming de-Catholicized in the process) and to pursue a career as a screenwriter and stand-up comic in the clubs of L.A. These hilarious essays on life inside and outside a Zen monastery make up the spiritual memoir of Shozan Jack Haubner, a Zen monk who didn’t really start out to be one.
